In Australia, six babies are stillborn every day, with one in 120 births being a stillborn baby or a newborn death. These are utterly heartbreaking and tragic statistics, which impact thousands of families each year.
Finding out when you are well into your pregnancy that your baby has not survived, or that there are problems with the unborn child or pregnancy, can be devastating. This commonly leads women and men to experience a range of reactions.
Initially, many people describe feeling in a state of shock, as they learn that their baby, whom they assumed to be healthy, is now at risk or has died. The news that this has occurred leaves many in a state of disbelief or denial – as they cannot quite believe that this is happening or has happened to them. For others, there is an immediate feeling of immense pain.
It took a while for it to sink in. I was shocked and filled with so much emotional pain that it was almost unbearable.
Many people also describe feeling angry that this has happened to them. These feelings of anger may be strong from the early days or linger over time as you are reminded of your loss.
"I felt really, really angry. Angry with people who were pregnant, angry with people whose babies hadn’t been stillborn, angry with people who tried to empathise by talking to me about their miscarriages, angry even with those who were just trying to help."
Coming to terms with the news can also lead parents to feel immense and overwhelming feelings of sadness. It’s important to allow yourselves the opportunity to grieve, cry and mourn the loss of your child. The loss of a baby can also leave you feeling very alone and isolated as an individual and a couple. Therefore, it’s important to keep talking to each other, and derive all the support you can from one another and from loved ones.
Many bereaved couples also say that the stigma of stillbirth can compound feelings of isolation. This can make it difficult to talk to others who simply don’t understand what they’re going through.
We both felt quite alone as this was happening to us but no one around us really knew what it was like to go through. On the outside, we tried to make it seem like we were moving on, but on the inside it was raw. It was a really difficult time for both of us.
Talking with others whom you feel that you can trust and who can be understanding and supportive, can also be incredibly helpful if you are experiencing coping with a stillbirth. Connect with families who have had similar experiences through support services such as Red Nose or Pink Elephants. This can help you realise that you are not alone and that others have been through a similar experience.
One of the greatest comforts to me over these last excruciating months was learning how many other women felt the same fear that I do and yet survived subsequent pregnancies.
It is also common to feel a range of other reactions. This can include guilt, anguish, jealousy and/or shame. If you are experiencing these feelings, it is important to remember that it is not your fault. The reasons for this occurring are beyond your control.
It is a natural response to question, Why? Why me? Why us? While it is perfectly normal to ask this, there is, however, no natural answer or explanation. In fact, in Australia, around 40 per cent of stillbirths that occur after 28 weeks’ gestation are unexplained.
Try not to place pressure on yourself to find an explanation that may not be forthcoming. Rather, try to embrace your feelings of grief and draw on each other (or others that you trust) to hold and support you at this difficult time.
There are a range of free parent helpline services, plus information, support and other resources to assist you during your perinatal journey.
It is important to acknowledge and allow yourselves time and space to grieve for the loss of your baby and all the hopes and dreams that you held for your child and your future as parents of your little one.
Many parents talk of the importance of holding their stillborn babies.
"That moment when I held him in my arms, he was perfect. It was the most precious, wonderful and sad moment of my life."
Some have photographs taken to remember and cherish the moments that they had with them.
"I wish I had got more photos taken of her by an organisation such as Heartfelt – I never knew how precious the few I have now would be."
Try to give yourself time to grieve before considering trying again for another baby in the future. This is important for your emotional and mental health, both now and in the future. You or your partner may feel a sense of urgency to try to conceive again as soon as possible. However, often rushing into this can increase your anxiety later on.
"After my child was stillborn, I was desperate to get pregnant as soon as we could. Becoming pregnant again was my sole focus. And when I did become pregnant again, initially I felt immense relief… but that was soon replaced with feelings of apprehension, as I got through the next eight months holding my breath hoping everything would be ok."
Research indicates that rates of anxiety in women during a subsequent pregnancy are likely to be higher if she falls pregnant within twelve months of a stillbirth. Further, there is also more likelihood of experiencing postnatal depression and anxiety following the birth of their subsequent healthy baby.
As a result, some health professionals recommend giving yourself time (around a year) to mourn your loss before beginning another pregnancy. Doing so may be advantageous to your emotional and mental wellbeing in the longer term.
Anxiety disorders are the most common mental health problem, affecting 1 in 4 people in their lifetime. Antenatal anxiety is even more common.
Antenatal depression is the second most common mental health condition that affects up to ten percent of women during pregnancy.
If you have ongoing thoughts and feelings of worry and tension that are hard to live with, then you may be experiencing postnatal anxiety.
Postnatal depression is a common but debilitating condition that affects one in seven women following the birth of their baby.
There are a range of professionals and services with expertise in providing support for coping with a stillbirth.
You can find a service in your area by searching under perinatal loss on the COPE Directory.
Although common, pregnancy loss can impact your emotional and mental health. Read more about how to cope after pregnancy loss.
While miscarriage may be common, it can be extremely distressing. There are a range of supports available for coping with miscarriage.
There are a range things you can do, plus specialist professionals and services that can help you cope with infant loss.
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